I've diverted my education path for the moment, taking one and a half years to figure out what I really want to do. So for the moment, I've enrolled myself in Form 6, which is the equivalent to A Levels. I have a couple of choices for what I want to do once I've completed F6. I'm in Science Stream, by the way.

The first one, which is the one I originally wanted to follow, is art. I find that my passion in life is for art, almost any kind, but in this case, particularly Visual Arts. E.g. Illustration, Graphic Designing, etc. I've heard though that in this field it's less easy to find a job; very little demand for visual artists. So I omitted this choice.

The second, Software Engineering. I thought maybe if I can't pursue art, I could try something like programming, which I quite like (I've done my fair share of . Unfortunately, the field of IT is already bombarded by tons of IT enthusiasts, struggling for job positions. No luck there, but maybe still worth a try.

The third, and (probably) final choice, is one suggested by my family. Music. Apparently, unlike Visual Art, this form of art is less common among people. So, I'm thinking this will probably be my choice after F6. I've always loved music, though I never really saw it as my major. I always enjoyed Visual Arts more, but I guess times have changed, so must I adapt.

I'm not entirely sure about this choice, though. I'm still thinking it over, keeping my mind open to other choices I may have missed. And hopefully, by the end of 2010, I've made a firm decision. I don't just want to major in something with good income, but in something that I really enjoy doing.

But making the choice by myself isn't going to be easy. The people around me, the things they insist I do, are really stressing me out. There are many other factors too that are constantly diverting my decisions. I've been under pressure from all these things for the past few months now, sometimes I just breakdown thinking about my future. I just wish things will be easier on me. My brother didn't have much of a problem choosing his path 5 years ago. Sometimes I wonder why I'm so unfortunate.